Welcome to My New Personal Website

I woke up today and decided it is time to retire my old blog, hosted on Blogspot. I wrote on that blog for a long time.

At first, I thought about moving all of the content to this new site. But then I decided: if this is a fresh start, then fresh it will be.

I will keep my Blogspot blog. notsocietyschild.blogspot.com was created at a time when I was still becoming. I was a child trying to navigate an adult world with adult feelings.

When I look back now, I read those writings through the lens of a child - an emotional child. Perhaps now that I am older, my words wouldn’t sound so… childish anymore. But someone I care deeply for once told me:

It is the child in us that makes life worth living.

He has chastised me many times for taking life too seriously. So I’m trying to accept the child in me.

---

Wanting to Be Grown

Throughout my childhood, I wanted to be an adult.

Gosh, my mum was so impressive when she dressed up to go out and wore her lipstick. I wasn’t allowed to wear makeup growing up, but God, I wanted so badly to dress up like her. She was the most beautiful woman to me.

When she sipped from a mug and stained it with her lipstick, I would take a sip from that same cup - carefully placing my lips where hers had left a mark.

I never got enough leftover lipstick from her cups to feel like a woman. But there was satisfaction. I was on my way.

And when the time was right, I’ll own many lipsticks, I told myself.

Well - now I do.

I own many colors of lipstick. I still love to dress up and stain my lips. But even more satisfying than that is this:

Everyone says I look like my mum.

---

Becoming

This blog is a tribute to the woman I have grown into.

I am still learning who I am. Still trying to become a better version of the child I once was.

But one thing has remained constant throughout my metamorphosis:

My love for writing.

I’m picking it back up again. I’m working on historical fiction.

Let’s see how it goes.